K-dizzle's Journal

end is forever

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 05:05:52 GMT

How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

Im just a fucked up girl looking for my own piece of mind. DONT assign me yours.

Gosh..that is perhaps the most incredible movies known to mankind. Although, others say that Garden State is comparable to it. I think I may have to watch it ones of these days.

Break is over...seems like a lot of things are starting to be. But then there isnt really an end to anything in life. Like laundry for example. Vicious cycle really but it is a necesity.
Anyways...I am sad that I was not allowed to go to Chris and Andrew's concert yesterday. Stupid stupid rain. (im sorry guys my mom said no :() I even hurried home from my basketball game so that i could go to it. I do love you guys and I will be at your next show.
Ill write more later when Im done with the never ending stack of physics papers.
goodbye

wowzers

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 06:32:51 GMT

Im writing in this again... wow twice in one week. Im less stressed out today..eventhough i have like a trillion things to do. But i really cant concentrate. Lets see..I havent talked to Bri in a while...its kind of strange because i never really believed that you can be friends one minute and strangers the next. hmmmmmmmm.... Anyways Im doing econ..and econ sux monkey nutts.. I guesss this is a boring journal but o well when i have time i will write more. Btw. I am in love with jimmy eat world's Hear you me...its beautiful...no matter how long ive liked it for..it never loses its touch. Ü Well guys nighty night!

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 22:08:00 GMT

Ok so i have not written in this thing in sooo long..and i dont know why but I decided today that I am starting back up. Im feeling a little bit down lately..dont know why..but i am. Andrew says Im being self concious..but the way i see it...what does he know? i dont know...im looking for new music..im bored with my stuff right now..and im pretty much bored in general right now.. is that bad? O well...college is coming right? gggggggrrrrrrreat.... :/

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 01:46:43 GMT

Thats me in the cow costume.

gosh we..are...soooo cool? hehe?

Thats Ashlee and I b4 work...ttizite.

Anyways enough with the pictures...I made a myspace a while ago..its pretty cool i guess..though this journal is a bit more user friendly..however if you want to check out my my space go right ahead but add your name on the friends thingy. Anyways....Things are going pretty good lately..School is fine..hard but im doing good. Everything else is going good as well. Today was the senior barbeque that was fun..cept extremely hot! Bri and I ate under a table lol to stay out of the sun...thats how cool we are.....jk?

I got the new Senses Fail cd yesterday..its really good. If you havent bought it then you should go out right now and get it. Its just THAT good...hehe well Im going to go. TTYL!!!!! I love you all!

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 22:52:27 GMT

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Thu, 02 Sep 2004 06:10:15 GMT

Hey everyone!!!!!!!
Well I just got done watching FOR THE LOVE OF THE GAME. Its such a cute love movie. Well I just thought Id say hi to everyone...since i havent written in like....one whole day...OMGGGG!!!!!!!! hehe jk...well goodnight im asleeepppy!

chillaxin..

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 21:36:40 GMT

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Mon, 30 Aug 2004 02:45:58 GMT

Well once again Ive worked a lot this weekend and hung out with andy...which was quite entertaining. Anyways I found this cd this weekend..it was my favorite of all times because it is the first punk cd I was ever given or owned. It is also the best ever man. Thanx to ANDREW CLARK aka superstud. He rocks at making mixes man. I love the simple happy punk rock songs on it..they make me smile. Ü Anyways...hahaha I found out that i have to take another class first period..which will totally suck..but maybe then my mommy wont make me stay in journalism. Yes...that would be a nice trade off. Anyways...I think Im going to get going..Its Jack's (my grandma's best friends) birthday and they are over! I will talk to you all later hopefully..and if this is one of my long lost friends reading my journal call me sometime (coughchriscough)! I still love you guys. Well buhbye!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 19:57:33 GMT

Well lets see...Ive been pretty busy working..or doing homework..I kinda feel like a loser. I mean Ive talked to some people but I havent really hung out with anyone. Its kinda sad :(. well at least work is alright or else I would be hating life right now. Well today Im going to do something whether it kills me or not cuz I am soooooooo bored lately. So I guess I will write something later? Alright bye byez guys!

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 01:21:39 GMT

"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember but I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 03:08:01 GMT

Hey Guys..I havent written since school started..which was only four days ago yet it seems like its been a lot longer. Im happy to say that I might be one of the only people that dont have senioritis..I never thought it would happen..but I am not a slacker so far..Ive done all my homework..I mean I always end up with the homework in but I actually DO it now..and learn it now. Its strange... Anyways I havent seen very many people at school because all my classes are on one side of the school and within like 2 seconds of eachother. Although..Bahar is in my english class and thats quite entertaining sometimes. Also Mr Stimac is pretty halarious..I like his sense of humor. Anyways enough about my REALLY cool classes and on to bigger and better things. LIke.....CHEER. hahaha right just kidding. Actually..and I know this will give you guys shock but I can honestly say that this year CHEER IS FUN! I bet you never thought Id say those two words together in a sentence..except maybe COACH ED IS A CHEER FUN SUCKER OUTER. did that make sense?..oooofffff couuurseee it idid. Yea...anywho... I work a lot this weekend so I probably wont be writing..or online...Im sowwy :( Well... I really like this song right now I dont know why but I just do...: Well, i'll wait till you listen I wont say a word to follow your instincts just never worked for me your silent but strong, (yeah, I'm playing that card) and your noticing nothing again Now I'm lying on the table with everything you said keep that in mind the way that it felt when the most I could do was to just blame myself (yeah, I'm playing that card) when the most I could do was to just blame myself and I know you know, everything I know you didnt mean it I know you didnt mean it I know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget) So, we're talking forever and you almost feel better but, betters no excuse for tonight you see, it's never been enough to just leave or give up but, its never good enough to feel right Now I'm lying on the table with everything you said it will all catch up eventually well, it caught up and honestly the weight of my decisions were impossible to hold but they were never yours they were never yours Well I, know you know, everything I know you didnt mean it I know you didnt mean it I know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't meant it (remember more then youd like to forget) Drop everything, start it all over remember more then youd like to forget [x2] Would you like to forget would you like to forget drop everything, start it all over well, drop everything start it all over (would you like to forget) drop everything start it all over start it all... Well I, know you know, everything I know you didnt mean it I know you didnt mean it I know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didnt mean it (start it all over) I know you didnt meant it (remember more then youd like to forget) I know you know I know you know...you know, you know, you know...

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 05:16:46 GMT

I went shopping for four hours today..and I only found one shirt and a pair of sandals. I felt bad making andrew walk around with me for so long but there was nothing in my size or that really attracted my attention. I think tomorrow I am going to go shopping in Northridge or something. Maybe I will have better luck there. Then I made dindin for my darling Andrew. I had a nice night and it made the last day of summer seem not so bad. I guess school has to start sometime. See you guys tomorrow!

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 10:10:56 GMT

Ok Well Today was a really really good day...i didnt do anything exciting..but the day left me content. I saw Princess Diaries 2 this morning at 1030..that was a good sequel though i do like the OG better. Then I went shopping for a wee little bit..and then went to andy's house. Then I had work. I really like Maggie Moos..its suprisingly fun..and I really like the people. We have some quality conversations. When I got home I watched Dawson's Creek Season 1 on DVD..i think i watched it for about 2 1/2 hours..just enough to finish off the season. That show is just so amazing..I dont think Ive ever cried that much..it really gets your emotions going..and it also makes you want relationships like that..everything just seems so realistic in it. I know sometimes I wish my life were more like a fairy tale..but honestly I love my life.. I would never trade it for anything. Im just kind of scared as to what the next year will bring..and deciding what on earth Im going to do when I need to decide on a college. I guess I have a while to worry bout this stuff but times going so fast lately I cant even think straight half the time...o well..I do know one thing..I am happy..right now in my life..and with the people that are in it..Im soo incredibly happy. Thats all that matters.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 19:23:27 GMT

Yay Im the cow today..does that rock or what?

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 06:44:56 GMT

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 07:14:27 GMT

Well..ive been told that my journal is dumb so Ive decided that Im not going to write much anymore...I will just leave a picture that sums up my feelings...

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 20:53:23 GMT

Dude I like really really suck at this try to make someone feel better stuff...but then again there isnt that much that I can do to help. I do love you though Bri..and all I can do is be here for you. So what do you do when someone that youve been best friends with since kindergarten is going to be sent to live with their grandma in sacremento with just a few days notice? What exactly would you say to her? I have no idea.. I think Im really confused right now because Im feeling really...umm independent from everything lately..and its making me think a lot about everything..whether thats a good thing or not im not sure. yea...umm anywho.. Im going to meet Andrew while hes on his half (yipideedoda). Oh yea and steal candy...cant forget that... O yea and bad newsss...im not the cow today...or anytime this week. :( Sux monkeyballs eh? haha yea well Im heading out so lata skata!

Picture of the Moment:

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 05:35:19 GMT

Im excited because Andy is home (Yippeeedooo! Wahhoooo! Yowwwzzaaa!) Ü Maybe I will see him tomorrow..That would be super cool. Anywho I went to a dodger game today and it was really fun. Although it was friggin hot as heck out there...but I wore my cool visor so I didnt get sunburned again. Then...My grandpa took my family out to dinner cuz my brother is leaving for college in 2 days..it was kinda a goodbye din din (*tear tear*). It was a very...neat dinner. I think Im going to start taking Brazilian Jui Jitsu classes...My brother was telling us a story about his girlfriend (or old gf) that lives in New York. They met from my brothers Self Defense JuiJitsu Club...anyways she was going home from a friends house and as she got off the subway a man pinched her butt...so she turned around and socked him right in the jaw...he fell down and got knocked unconscience....well yea just incase Im walking home all alone 12 blocks from a subway station...Jui Jitsu might come in handy...or I could just stick to pepperspray....yeaaaaa...sounds good... Anyways enough of storytime...Ive heard my stories put people to sleep...no names mentioned (hehe jk).. I went to sports chalet..and as I was walking by the golf section I looked for my true love Bono (jk but i do love him)..but no such luck. The Golf Department was empty..hehe O well next time. Hmm I think maybe thats it for tonight...Im going to go do a little tidying up in my room...so nighty night....XoXo....

wait....here is the site to an awesome band...I seriously llllllllooooooooooooooooovvvvvvveeeeeeee them hehe
http://www.hellogoodbye.net

They are crazzzzzzzzyyy cute too!!!!!!

Great Song

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 02:04:16 GMT

"So Impossible"

So she says
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?
I'd be so pleased to see you
out of the classroom wearing the smile that I'll bring you.
I was hoping to learn a few things like..
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
on the whole class &
talking the big smack &
playing the fool &
wearing all of the latest fashions
or bucking the new trends
wearing your old threads.
If you like coffee in the evening.
These are a few things that I'd like to know
that I'd like to know"

So I said...
"I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in
and my friend isn't busy
he'd be happy to join me
and maybe my friend
and your friend
will hit it off or maybe we will?"

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
So yes, I'll see you there.

Ok so Ive really been in a dashboard mood lately...I love him.

btw...what does chipper mean?

Curious

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 08:42:12 GMT

Alexis Bledal is one of my favorite actresses ever. I love Gilmore girls..I know its lame but I really believe it might be the best show ever made. Anyways she is gorgeous. Dont we all wish we could look like that? hmm anyways..

I worked again tonight..and once again my dear friend HOHO came to see me...cept this time he was wearing this really cool visor....REALLY COOL..haha. Um just joking? hehe. Well thanks for visiting you butterfingershakeboy. ummm moving on...

I still dont know whats going on with my flapping egg...Im still worried but I guess as long as she knows that I love her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much then its all good in the hood. Call me if you need me... haha that reminds me
Well Its vury late and Im supadeeeeedooper tired. So maybe Ill go to sleep now.. nighty night ya'll. sweet dream.

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 23:38:05 GMT

Ok all I can say is that he is gorgeous...100%. cept maybe I liked him better with long hair...o well he's still easy on the eyes.

Hes hott.

blahdeblahblah

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 07:31:50 GMT

Im covered in ice cream..I taste good.

loadsa...wurd.

Well Ill tell you what paully pockets at least the past is good for something. COmfort...the past is comforting because no matter what..you always have the past. And oh my friggen goodness I get to see you tomorrow! YIPPEEEDOOO! Well everybody I am starting to get boreditty bored bored...so I htink i go to sleepity sleep sleep!

<3 In a while crocadile...

Confused

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 06:53:56 GMT

Well I did something today that Im not really sure if I should have. I mean it sucks and I know that that person is going to be pretty pissed at me right now..but if I hadnt done something and they had done something bad..then I would have felt like it was my fault. So I guess I did do the right thing.

To YOU: I know that you know who i am talking about. I seriously love you so much and I really cant imagine if we werent friends anymore. I wouldnt know what to do or where to turn. You mean soooo much to me..and even if we havent been hanging out that much lately...you are still my best friend. Eventhough sometimes I know we bug eachother soo much with our different views on THINGS...no matter what I will support you through anything. I love you and thats the only reason I told.

I worked all night tonight with Ashlee Houston. It was really fun and shes super sweet. Thanx HOHO for coming to visit..hehe that was nice of you eventhough i didnt get to talk to you at ALL..its cool..vurry vurry cool. Um ya..anywho..I like the apple strudel ice cream at magie moos. Its going to make me fat.

work..

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 23:14:47 GMT

Hey guys!!!!!!!! I just made this cuz i was supa supa dee dupa bored. but yea just want to see how this works...ill write more after work Ü